achooooowheeeha

I think my allergy medicine is inducing small manic spirals.  Yesterday, my brain was bouncing off the walls, and today I feel like hell.  I'm currently wrapped up in a blanket, trying to suffocate the feeling that I need to burst into tears.  Mind you, I'm not sad.  I'm foggy and slow, but I'm not sad.  I do, however, have a lot of physical sensations of depression.  It's very strange, unsettling, and uncomfortable.

I used to take allergy medicine 24/7.  I'm allergic to everything.  There's a small window in, like, January, when no seasonal allergies are on the calendar.  In addition, during my roller derby years, I was allergic to the mold (or something) at the rink where we practiced.  Plus, I had a cat, to which I was allergic.  The rink and the cat aggravated my seasonal allergies, and I was a mess without my drugs.

I imagine my house has some allergy problems in it now, like dust clinging to all of the clutter, but for the most part, I was okay without allergy medicine for the winter.  I like to take the least amount of daily drugs as possible (to save my poor stomach lining), so I was happy to stop taking allergy medicine for a while.  Summer/Fall is super rough on me, so I knew I could be off of them forever.  When I started back this week, I did 12 hr pills instead of 24 hr.

It's a rough ride.

I'm wondering if the speed-factor in my allergy medicine is fucking up my seratonin.  I'm wondering how I could have functioned when I was zooming on it 24/7, 365.

I took it again today, and I'm gonna alter a few other variables (like, oh, remembering to eat...) and see if that changes anything.  I sure hope so, 'cos I'm not sure what other option I have for dueling allergies, other than living in an a/c bubble for two months out of the year.

Back in college, I remember when my allergies were less intense, but still pretty damn bad.  My hair was super long.  Every time I entered my house, I stuck my head in the sink.  Wetting down my hair trapped the pollen that got stuck in there just from me walking a few blocks to campus.  Sheesh.

13 yr old jailed in psych ward while mom, state play tug-of-war

The Detroit News reports (link mine):

State authorities have accused the mother of medical neglect for halting the girl's treatment with the controversial anti-psychotic drug Risperdal, which is used to treat the symptoms of schizophrenia. A trial over the neglect allegations and custody of the child is set to being in June before Pierce. 

Risperdal is a hardcore psych drug.  It has not been in existence for long enough to know how it effects a child's developing brain.  I'm surprised that it's even prescribed to children, not to mention forcible prescription.

What is guaranteed to effect a child's developing identity and sense of self:?  Locking 'em up in a psych ward.  If the state gave a shit about the girl's mental well-being, they'd let her stay at home while this is being sorted out.  What's the worse thing the mother can do?  Not give the child something that wasn't even available for her two years ago?

note: Fortunately, the girl has been released and is now at home.